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Based On True Events

by Kerrigan

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1.
Tell me, why do we play these game and why does my mouth still taste like shit every time I say your fucking name? I don’t think you and I will ever see eye to eye. Don’t get me wrong, I only mean the greatest of disrespect. This town isn’t big enough for you or me, or for the both of us. You claim to stand second to none but when there’s no one around that’s not saying much. Can’t you see there’s no one listening? I think it’s time for you to take a hint. So keep on running your mouth and I’ll keep on pretending I’m hearing you out. Take a look around you, there’s nobody left. For all the words that escaped you I’ll make you wish you could take them back. I’ll make you wish you could take them back. There’s something about you that rubs me wrong in every way. There’s something I need to get off my chest, something I just have to say: Who do you think you are, to think so highly of yourself all of the fucking time? I hope you take this to heart I hope it eats you alive when I say what’s on everyone’s mind: Fuck you. Can’t you see there’s no one listening? I think it’s time for you to take a hint. So keep on running your mouth and I’ll keep on pretending I’m hearing you out. Take a look around you, there’s nobody left. For all the words that escaped you I’ll make you wish you could take them back. Take back… I’ll make you wish you could take them back. The world doesn’t stop spinning for someone like you. You bring out the worst in me.
2.
I don’t mean to scare you, but don’t leave the lights on for me tonight I won’t be making it home until I’m making things right. Twenty-two years have gone and passed me by and I still feel like I'm not doing things right, and I know, I'm slowly losing hope. I don't mean to scare you, but don't leave your lights on for me tonight. I won't be making it home until I'm making things right. You know me all too well. You know me better than I know myself. Cause' every time I get my feet on the ground the tide grows just a little bit stronger, It carries me back out. And as I feel myself sinking under the weight of all the pressure I'm calling out your name. I knew things wouldn't be easy but I never thought they would be so hard, just to keep everything together and keep it all from falling apart. Please tell me things get better, cause' I can't keep wasting my time. With each day that's moving forward I'm falling farther behind. Things seem so far away, so out of reach, so incomplete. But if you want it then you got it, it's a matter of time before I get it all together and take back what's mine. I don't mean to scare you, but don't leave your lights on for me tonight. I won't be making it home until I'm making things right. You know me all too well. You know me better than I know myself. Cause' every time I get my feet on the ground the tide grows just a little bit stronger, It carries me back out. And as I feel myself sinking under the weight of all the pressure I'm calling out your name. This time it's gone too far to hang my head again…. depend on all my dead-end friends… I'm calling out your name. The tide's rolling in, I'm losing ground again. The tide's rolling in, I'm losing ground again. I don't mean to scare you, but don't leave your lights on for me tonight. I won't be making it home until I'm making things right. Things seem so far away, so out of reach, so incomplete. But if you want it then you got it, it's a matter of time before I get it all together and take back what's mine.
3.
The Chase 04:41
I am the man I am today because of me and no one else. You claim to be my saving grace. I don’t need you I don’t need anyone to get me by. I’m the kind of guy who lights the world on fire just to spit the ashes in the face of your ghost. I don’t give a single fuck about you. Worthless, selfish, a bad seed with a bad road ahead. Worthless, selfish, a bad seed with a bad road ahead. Save me from myself. Excuse me, can you tell me where I should go from here? I used to have all the answers but now I’m the one who is asking these questions. I’m so far gone. I hope he fucks you just like I miss you: angry, pissed-off, and not amused. Every time we’re chasing after ourselves we’re hopeless. I can’t save you. This was never together This was never enough. They used to think the world of me now they all just spit and curse at me. Excuse me, can you tell me where I should go from here? I used to have all the answers but now I’m the one who is asking these questions. Open eyes can only see so far when you’ve closed your mind and closed your heart. I was lost in the world because I used to believe that this was all on me but now I’m so far gone I don’t know what to believe. We all want change but we’re all afraid cause’ when things start to change it feels the whole world has changed. Everything that bends will break… And now that everything’s changed I think I still feel the same so I sit here and think: was this worth all the pain? Everything that bends will break… I can’t go on living life like this. I need to make a choice. So I’ll pick myself up And put the pieces back together one by one, and take steps towards becoming the man I was born to be. I can’t save you.
4.
I’d been dreaming, never thinking that playing this game isn’t winning. I’ll never see this the same. Sometimes I swear I’ll never get out of this goddamn town. I’ll walk along these empty roads until I find a place to call my home. All these people here think they’re living, they’re barely breathing, barely existing. It’s coming back again, the same old feeling. I don’t want to go, but I guess I’m leaving. Say goodbye. I can see the road from here, and I don’t know exactly where it goes. All I know is along the way I’ll find a place to call my home. Time after time, time and time again, all I ever seem to find is dead end after dead end. On and on it goes more pointless than before, all I ever seem to find is dead end after dead end. I’d been dreaming, never thinking that playing this game isn’t winning. I’ll never see this the same. Sometimes I swear I’ll never get out of this goddamn town. I’ll walk along these empty roads until I find a place called home. Time after time, time and time again, all I ever seem to find is dead end after dead end. On and on it goes more pointless than before, all I ever seem to find is dead end after dead end. They say a picture’s worth a thousand words, well all these photographs all across my walls: They don’t say a word, they don’t speak at all, they just go on an on and on. Come on! Say goodbye. I won’t forget the day that I woke up In a cold sweat in my room. Peeling away the paint on these walls Let the iron bars show right through. When I look into my own reflection I don’t know who’s in front of me But I can tell by the look on his face he’s scared to death of everything. Someone please, I’m in need of a chaser ‘cause right now clarity tastes so bitter. Someone please, we’re dealing with a crisis. Meaning was lost; constant fear lives behind it. I’d been dreaming, never thinking that playing this game… I’ll never see this the same. Some times I swear I’ll never get out of this goddamn town. I’ll walk along these empty roads until I find a place to call my home. Sometimes I swear I’ll never get out of this goddamn town. Sometimes, I swear…
5.
I’m sorry for losing any faith I once had. So here we stand: tongue-tied and at each other’s throat again. She said, “Oh how I love you so, I can’t believe I’m saying this… It’s not you it’s me.” Close your eyes and realize we’re not here to stay. We’re not playing for keeps. I can waste all my time on you. You can’t let go of something you never held onto. You can’t hold on to something you never could call your own. We could’ve been the kings and queens of nothing but now we’re nothing at all. We know I know you better than anyone, but I don’t know if I can take this fall. I can’t keep running away, from all the promises that I’ve made… I can’t keep running away, from all the promises that I’ve made. I can’t keep running away, when all hope dies and my dreams fade. I’m sorry for losing any faith I once had. I’m sorry for losing any faith I once had. …Because we’re vultures baby, We take the very best we can get and to be honest I don’t want to just waste away standing back to face with you. Beggars can’t be choosers; there’s always more to the story. Beggars die alone. You can’t let go of something you never held onto. You can’t hold on to something you never could call your own. We could’ve been the kings and queens of nothing but now we’re nothing at all. We know I know you better than anyone, but I don’t know if I can take this. If I told you what you wanted to hear Then I can’t promise that it’s coming from the bottom of my heart. If I told you what tomorrow would bring I don’t think that you could be happy, or better yet, keep that smile on your face.
6.
Whether 02:46
I can feel every step you take in the other direction. I can feel everyone else's hands on yours. I gave my best, and knowing that I opened my eyes, and closed my heart. Girl I see what we're trying to hide and the things that we lost could have kept us alive. But yet we keep fighting and we never search for all those things that we lost and the good in this all. But I see this all for what it is: All the unstable promises. I look forward, and knowing there's still good to come, despite what we lost, I'll find hope in myself. Don't say that you're sorry because I'm calloused by now. Girl I see what we're trying to hide and the things that we lost could have kept us alive. But yet we keep fighting and we never search for all those things that we lost and the good in this all. But this all keeps hurting and breaking all apart all the things that I need, like the sense I'm going the right way. I’ve lost all that I could to you so now I know this for sure I just want to be happy again. I can still feel you here even after you walk out that door. We lost it all along the way. You'd think I'd have learned. I gave all myself to you, and oh, I'm wasting my life away. This is it. Say goodbye. We go our separate ways.
7.
Dear Dad 03:35
Unwanted, from day damn one. Shit got tough, so you decided to run. So keep on running. The sun could set in a better place if you never left and still stood by my side. I won’t forget the day that you turned your back on us. You said you loved us all but we clearly weren’t good enough. When you say it, do you mean it? Cause’ I don’t know if I believed it. I don’t have any faith in you. Cause’ faith is for the weak. I am infinite; I have no end. Hang your head for unanswered question. You believe in ghosts and empty hopes that when we all fall on our knees; there’s dead men listening. You think I live my life while you give and you take what you please and expect me to bow my head. I walk alone. The sun could set in a better place if you never left and still stood by my side. I won’t forget the day that you turned your back on us. You said you loved us all but we clearly weren’t good enough. When you say it, do you mean it? Cause’ I don’t know if I believed it. I don’t have any faith in you. I don’t see you trying to turn back all the clocks. I’ve been thinking you can’t save what’s already been lost. If I ever cross your mind again put a barrel in your mouth and pull the trigger to get me out.

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released January 31, 2013

We want to thank Ian van Opijnen of the Echoroom Recording Studio for all his hard work and dedication in recording and producing this album.

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